Es hofft der Mensch so lang er lebt.

Tue, 13 Apr 2004 05:45:28 GMT

Got a new LJ. Won't be using this anymore.

Add me... = b1eeder

Mon, 12 Apr 2004 09:05:33 GMT

I've never been so alive.

Thu, 01 Apr 2004 21:58:04 GMT

I got 99 problems but a bitch ain't one.

Tue, 30 Mar 2004 03:13:38 GMT

You know it's going to be one of those days when... let me talk you through it...

7.59a - Alarm goes off
"Christ... I'm tired. When did I go to sleep lastnight? 11:30p. Medical researchers lie. Less is more!"
8.10a - Still in bed wondering
"Why can't I get up? 5 more minutes"
8.15a - Managed to make it to my closet
8.20a - I wish I could go shopping... nothing to wear
8.25a - Nothing looks right on me
8.30a - Maybe I've gained weight
8.35a - Maybe I've lost weight
8.40a - I should just put something on
8.45a - I hate my clothes
8.50a - I have to leave in 10 minutes. I wish I could go shopping and to the gym.
8.55a - Am I getting my period?
8.58a - Finally put an outfit together.
9.00a - Changed my outfit again.
9.05a - Driving to work.

And it progressively gets worse.

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 06:00:20 GMT

"Verges has previously defended Klaus Barbie, a Nazi Gestapo chief in France during World War II. Last month, Khieu Samphan, a former Khmer Rouge leader, said he had picked Verges to defend him at a proposed genocide trial for surviving leaders of the group that ruled Cambodia in the 1970s."

He hasn't confirmed that he's going to defend Saddam, yet. The trial should be interesting though.

Sat, 27 Mar 2004 03:00:21 GMT

Wee! Took modeling pictures for almost_paradise.
www.dekecompany.com

Thu, 18 Mar 2004 22:05:10 GMT

Is it the comfort that keeps you staying or the uncomfort that keeps you going?

Wed, 17 Mar 2004 09:01:46 GMT

Tue, 16 Mar 2004 08:20:03 GMT

In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies
but the silence of our friends.
Martin Luther King JR

Sun, 14 Mar 2004 09:14:07 GMT

Could you tell which girl isn't a cool lead singer?

Needless to say, it was an eventful night. I'll post more pics from the show later. ;D

Tue, 02 Mar 2004 22:56:27 GMT

Wed, 25 Feb 2004 09:14:15 GMT

Dear MoveOn member,

The Bush-Cheney energy bill is back, and it could come up for a vote at any moment. Republicans have signaled that they'll give as little as 24 hours' notice. We've got to get out ahead of it.

Please call your Senator(s) now, at:

Senator Dianne Feinstein
Washington, DC: 202-224-3841

Senator Barbara Boxer
Washington, DC: 202-224-3553

Make sure they know you're a constituent, then urge them to:

"Please FILIBUSTER to stop the energy bill."*

Give some reasons why you're concerned -- some good ones are listed below.

Please let us know you're calling, at:

http://www.moveon.org/callmade3.html?id=2392-3388693-ZtQWmgmogmrOtGGoV.TWiA

The energy bill is still terrible. Here's what it does:

1. Delays clean-up in smoggy cities, which would increase asthma
   attacks and other health problems, especially among children and elderly people.

2. Pollutes rivers and coastal waters by exempting oil and gas drilling
   from clean-up safeguards

3. Allows energy companies to rip off consumers by repealing the
   Public Utility Holding Company Act.

4. Includes billions in subsidies for big oil, nuclear, timber, and
   coal companies.

5. Increases air pollution and global warming with new incentives to
   burn coal for electricity without adequate pollution controls.

6. Threatens drinking water by allowing the underground injection of
   diesel fuel and other chemicals during oil and gas development.

7. Weakens environmental safeguards to pave the way for more oil and
   gas drilling on sensitive public lands in the Rocky Mountain West.
   At least sixteen national hunting and fishing organizations oppose
   these provisions.

8. Locks in American dependence on foreign oil by adding new
   roadblocks to better fuel economy.

9. Tramples on states' abilities to protect their coasts from harmful
   oil and gas exploration by weakening their input on federal
   coastal projects.

10. Promotes nuclear proliferation by reversing long-standing U.S.
   policy against reprocessing waste from commercial nuclear
   reactors, and using plutonium to generate commercial energy.

Please call your Senator(s) now, at:

Senator Dianne Feinstein
Washington, DC: 202-224-3841

Senator Barbara Boxer
Washington, DC: 202-224-3553

Urge them to filibuster the energy bill.

Thu, 19 Feb 2004 10:36:17 GMT

I look like a monkey.

Fri, 13 Feb 2004 02:21:48 GMT

So where'd you go?
How was your vacation home?
Well obviously you were busy, too busy for me
So this is how you leave me?
I'm broken hearted on the floor,
My tears seep through the crack under my door
Where I am locked in, shut down,
I'm so tired of picking myself up off the ground

So Happy Valentine's Day
I hope the sun's out in New York
I hope [s]he bought you roses
I hope [s]he bought you roses
So Happy Valentine's Day
I hope the sun's out in New York
I hope [s]he bought you roses
I hope [s]he bought you roses

My Valentine

Wed, 11 Feb 2004 09:11:20 GMT

When you were down i always picked you up
Why didn't I recognize that everything was never fine?
I'm kicking myself that I shared spit with you
So fuck yourself
And fuck this bleeding heart of mine

The ride's over, did you enjoy yourself?
The ride's over, fair thee well
Not on my time
The ride's over
Thank you
Enjoy yourself

Thu, 05 Feb 2004 09:25:53 GMT

And I guess it's hard not to feel stripped of everything you stand for every once in a while. Especially with how the world is working out right now... there aren't a lot of places to turn to for individuality. Everyone seems to just hate to conform into what they are labeled as but in the end... those labels are what make us who we are but who really holds true to these labels? If you really break it down... there are no true Vegetarians or Vegans. Whether it concerns your eating habits or the clothing you wear or companies you support. You are contributing to death in the past or the future and the only thing you can really do is try to be aware to the best of your abilities. We're all human... lalala... we make mistakes (Gotta love those movie tunes). So where am I going with this entry? A friend of mine recently told me how he can't stand Vegans because it is so popular to be one. I haven't met any Vegans to date besides the LJ kids that run around making stupid journal entries and then posting about their shopping spree at the Body Shop the next day but that's besides the point... I haven't met any. Maybe it's because normal people don't run around discussing their eating habits with complete strangers but what's normal anyways? What annoys me is how people don't get how hard it is to stick to these life long diet changes. It's not easy being Vegetarian... it's not easy being Vegan. I'm living proof of both. You can not stick to being Vegan because it is "cool". I don't care what anyone says. You must have extreme will power to go Vegan in order to fit in. I don't think anyone has that much power within them. But I'd love to challenge anyone that is reading this right now...

For the next 24 hours, I'd like you to avoid the following:
1. Dairy - i.e. milk, cheese, etc.
2. Eggs.
3. Meat - fish, chicken, red meat, etc.
4. Honey, etc.

Just anything that could potentially come from animals. Try it out for yourself and tell me how long you survived. I bet most you would end up crying at the end of the day out of frustration or even just hunger. Being vegan or vegetarian aren't trends. Trends you buy at stores and you wear out in a few months. It's just not that simple.

Side Note: New trend is to have animals in your LJ icon.

Sun, 01 Feb 2004 10:15:26 GMT

Shades don't get any cooler than this.

Sat, 31 Jan 2004 10:02:38 GMT

"Is it us that is dead, do we simply hide from the responsibility to stop what they do? There's so many of us, yet we let them have their way as this moment they're plotting and planning we've got to rise up to take their power away to save the world that they're ruining they're destroying...
Make peace... Not war!
Fight war... Not wars!
Make love... Not war!
1-2-3-4
We don't want your fucking war!"

Amazing how an album that came out in 1982 still holds true today.

Wed, 28 Jan 2004 10:13:26 GMT

And I want to know the difference between what sparkles
and what is gold.

Tue, 27 Jan 2004 08:32:28 GMT

Fun Veg Facts:

-It requires 78 calories worth of fossil fuel to produce 1 calorie of beef protein. It takes 2 calories of fossil fuel does it take to produce I calorie of soy protein.

-Broccoli has the greatest percent of calories from protein.

-According to the EarthSave Foundation, 55% of antibiotics used in the US are used for livestock.

-The average American man's chance for a heart attack is 50%. The average American man's chance for a heart attack with a Veggie diet is 15%.

-The average meat eater is responsible for the deaths of approximately 760 chickens, 46 Turkeys, 29 Sheep, 20 pigs, 15 ducks, 7 rabbits, 5 cows and more than 1000 fish.

-Lifelong vegetarians visit hospital 22% less often than meat eaters and when confined to hospital, spend a shorter time there.

Fun site:

http://pw1.netcom.com/~axleplus/stuff/veggie/vmyths.html

Wed, 21 Jan 2004 10:18:27 GMT

I am heaven sent
Don't you dare forget
I am all you ever wanted
What all the other girls all promised
Sorry I told
I just needed you to know
I think in decimals and dollars
I am the cause to all your problems
Shelter from cold
We are never alone
Coordinate brain and mouth
Then ask me what it's like to have myself so figured out
I wish I knew
I hope this song starts a craze.
The kind of song that ignites the airwaves
The kind of song that makes people glad to be where they are
with whoever they're there with
This is war
Every line is about who I don't wanna write about anymore.
I hope you come down with something
they can't diagnose, and don't have the cure for
Holding on to your grudge
Oh it's so hard to have someone to love
And keeping quiet is hard
Cause you can't keep a secret
if it never was a secret to start
(you could at least pretend you didn't want to get caught)
We're consentrating on falling apart
We were contenders and we're now throwing the fights
I just want to believe...I just want to believe...
I just want to believe... in us
We are [I am] entirely smooth
Yes, we admit to the truth
We are [I am]the best at what we do
And these are the words you wish you wrote down
This is the way you wish your voice sounds Handsome and smart
Ooh, my tongue's the only muscle on my body
that works harder than my heart
And it's all from watching t.v.
And from speeding up my breathing
I wouldn't stop if I could
It hurts to be this good
And you're holding on to your grudge
Oh, it hurts to always have to be honest with the one that you love
so let it go
This is the grace only we can bestow
This is the price you pay for loss of control
This is the break in the bend
This is the closest of calls
This is the reason you're alone
This is the rise and fall

Wed, 21 Jan 2004 08:24:27 GMT

You know how the new trend is to be skinny? The thinner you are... the hotter you are and we're slowly drifting back in time from the fashion era we all experienced earlier this summer of the 80's to now the ideal body types as well. Everyone is dieting ... everyone wants to be thinner... everyone is killing themselves to fit into those size 25 SEVENS that they have been dying for while I'm sitting back and laughing at everyone enjoying my carbs. Anyways... in the year 2020 when the worlds oil supply has vanished and we are left without heaters to warm our scrawny bodies off and we have no food to eat... you know who will prosper? THE FAT PEOPLE. The fat people will be warm. The fat people won't die off. The fat people will win. And when all the little scrawny kids that thought being super thin and not eating are dead... THE FAT PEOPLE WILL LAUGH.

Go fatties!

Mon, 19 Jan 2004 10:09:30 GMT

TAKE IT ALL IN BITCH.

Side note: We've decided that I look like a dumb trailer trash retarded slut in this picture.

Sun, 18 Jan 2004 08:56:26 GMT

HIGH CONTRASTrules my existence.

Side note: Got bored and decided to use Molly's tips. Thanks.<3

Fri, 16 Jan 2004 10:33:31 GMT

Die Würfel sind gefallen.

Ah, back here. Where to start? Lastnight I was up reading late as usual and I went into an emotional... what's the word... downfall? Sounds good to me. I went into an emotional downfall (for lack of a better word). I'm scared for the future... I'm scared for what all of our hard work will amount to in the future. I wish people could open up their eyes and seriously get involved politically with who they elect into office. I wish people would do intense background checks with who they decide should be running this WORLD. Not fucking country... WORLD. I use world because we have all seen the aftermath of 9/11 and what an impact a stupid Texan can make on another country. No, fuck that... we have all witnessed the rest of this country we live in that we subtitle "LAND OF THE FREE" support the dickwad in office. What the fuck are people thinking? Do people actually think we will have oil forever? Do people actually think Bush is a great guy? I'd love to meet a motherfucker that would do anything to kiss the ground that asshole walks on... excuse my language. And I sit here with my lights on and my heater running and my warm MADE IN TAIWAN sweater on and I wonder if I'm just like all those other assholes that stood back and watched us to go to war and chanted on the asshole and the sheep army to run off and kill people. I beg each and every single person in this country...

DON'T VOTE BUSH 2004!